Today has been a win-win for me.
I have been waiting and waiting for this day to arrive. My mind is now free and clear and I no longer have the need or pull that I once had to support a friendship that was only one sided in nature. I had the courage to stand up for myself today. To “own” my part in the disastrous, downward spiral of a hard learned lesson and pick up the pieces to move on. I owned today and I will own tomorrow. There is no turning back, there is only putting one foot in front of the other. I made my points, I stuck to what I needed to say and although it took every ounce of courage that I had, I walked out the door. Sometimes in life that is what you need to do. It is a process. It is the culmination of all wrong that has come of what once was and the fresh new beginning of what will soon be.
What has helped me get to this point has been the following:
1) A discussion with a colleague about friends. You learn a lot just by listening.
2) Extended travel and time to yourself to think about these endeavors.
3) My playlist
“Roar”- Katy Perry
“Don’t Put Dirt On My Grave Just Yet”- Nashville Cast feat. Hayden Panettiere
“Nothing in This World Will Ever Break My Heart Again”- Nashville Cast feat. Hayden Panettiere
“Tell That Devil”- Nashville Cast feat. Hayden Panettiere
“Cold One”- Eric Church
“I Lived”- One Republic
“If I Were Me”- Sound City
“Hangin’ On a Lie”- Nashville Cast feat. Hayden Panettiere
“A Life That’s Good”- Nashville Cast feat. Lennon & Maisy
Putting all the pieces together, I finally found the strength to complete the circle once and for all. My circle is now complete. My weight is lifted and I can move on with my life. I am free.