I’m never too far from you as you are always in my thoughts. Each time i think about your smile, your eyes, your laugh- I blush.
After all these years I still remember the first butterflies in my stomach and the way I was giddy when we met. Flushed cheeks, nervous and excited. Blushed and young each time you get near. Every day, every moment it never gets old.
Lately it has been a bit frustrating to get things done that require my full attention.
There are individuals who insist that they are correct in all aspects of the daily grind yet they don’t know the first thing about what I’ve been doing to make the flow of work or life for that matter efficient and effective. They assume that I am doing things wrong.
I have spelled out in words or in actions a plan, a strategy and still They insist that I am not doing right by them. It is truly getting to be a day to day beat down.
Today I am just venting and tomorrow I know will be a better day but this last week has been a real let down all around.
So my outlook is to take the small bites of good in a day no matter how insistent someone is that you are doing something wrong. Every small bite will fill you with goodness. Just keep filling yourself with small bites because that will give you some hope you will make it through the day.
A new year and a new beginning right. Well then try something different. Sign up for a class at the local parks and rec or YMCA. Even go to the local community college or university. There are courses you can take through online groups as well. Enroll for something that is out of your wheelhouse and/or improve a skill.
I’ve been taking Spanish for the last six months. I am not very good at it but I am understanding more of the basics than I have before and I have recently signed up for an online course to gain more knowledge for professional development. Anything to keep my brain motivated and me engaged.
So try something different. There are plenty of free and for profit courses out there that are well worth the dollar you will spend to get ahead, enjoy life a little more or simply relearn an old skill.
For the last six months I haven’t felt like things are right.
When you do everything in your power to make a client happy and you have another your company feels you failed at. Everything you do gives you an inkling that you aren’t doing the right things or that no matter how hard you try you just can’t rebound from a failure.
I know that in some companies it is one and done. You fail you are out of there. In others they like to see you fail because you learn from your mistakes; in this one, it is more like certain people can fail and they get a free pass but if you fail there is a higher expectation and you are made to feel as if you are not worth being at the company any longer.
So I have an inkling things are different and going to change. It isn’t fair even though life isn’t fair but if I were to have to leave the company then maybe it is a good thing. Failure helps you learn, it helps you grow and with some things it isn’t just one persons fault that you fail. In this case it is multiple issues that bubbles up to result in a failure, therefore, should one be held to the higher standard and have it hang over their head? No but then again that would be poor management.
So it is an inkling I have that because of how management is and because of the standard they hold some to and not all the company may or may not survive. They may and may not make profits and they may and may not have those who work hardest to support the overall company goals around because of their knee jerk reactions.
There is a strategy that one should have when playing a game- if you want to win.
There is a strategy to having a leg up in the competition if you want to be ahead in the market.
There is even a strategy to meandering through LA traffic on a given day- what time do you leave, what lane should you be in, what route is best to take.
There is a strategy for just about all situations. We just need to put aside 10 minutes a day to think through possibilities. Each of us can come up with a strategy to make our lives easier just by carving out time each day to find a better, sounder way.
It is a new year, a new month and a time for us to look forward.
Often times we let things linger, fester and follow us from year to year. This year is a time to be forward-thinking and move on. Let the sunset on the horizon of 2017 and all that has happened in the past and start new. We are 20 days in to a new beginning- start fresh.
It is a goal of mine to let it go this year. I’ve already let go of those people who have caused me grief and harm in the past year. I’m starting over this year and beginning fresh. I’m looking forward to the new year and new adventures.
I am not saying it was a bad year just one with a lot of bumps and bruises along the way. Sure there were good things that happened too but I could do with a few less bumps and a lot less bruising in 2018. I am finally over 2017 folks.
-moved to the Southeast
-sold our homes, yes homes, in California (thank heavens we are out it has changed)
– son totaled his car
-work was stressful enough to cause health issues
– knee is not what it used to be and has caused issues when running- i know poor me but to keep healthy it is a bother
– the south should be warmer and we have a cold spell, it needs to go away quickly
– friends aren’t what they used to be. Thankful i am making new ones.
– life takes twists and turns and the unexpected happens at times. All good but wow was it unexpected.
– found out we are moving again.
– some family is not worth the dime you spend on them. Others are priceless.
So my recap is that i am ‘finally’ glad that 2017 is done. Lookin. Forward to 2018 with my resolutions in my pocket and my goals written out. Not giving them away or telling others just joking on to them.