I’m never too far from you as you are always in my thoughts. Each time i think about your smile, your eyes, your laugh- I blush.
After all these years I still remember the first butterflies in my stomach and the way I was giddy when we met. Flushed cheeks, nervous and excited. Blushed and young each time you get near. Every day, every moment it never gets old.
I try Over and Over again to have a mantra, but I just can’t come to find one that works. Most days when I get frustrated I chant Namaste Over and Over again until I feel better but that lasts only a short time. I do this when I feel that my creativity is stifled or that i am cornered or in a box.
How is it that there are people in the world who want to always place others in a box or stifle their spark. I got excited about a project one day and a coworker said that it won’t work it is too broad of an idea. What? Think outside of the blinders you have on and what potential we all have. Why be inside of a box yourself and then place others inside with you. I don’t understand people who want to do that to you. Be open and just.
There is this person who is so so negative and then spreads their toxins around to others. They then stifle the air we all have to interact with them in and makes it uncomfortable. They also go and lie and say that those who do try and interact with that person said something they didn’t like or didn’t agree to. So who is stifling who? It makes you then stifled because you no lib we want to interact or bring things up, instead it makes you want to shut down.
I’m all for getting rid of those who bring on the negative, toxic energy and push forward with the new and positive forces of good. Enough is enough.
For the last six months I haven’t felt like things are right.
When you do everything in your power to make a client happy and you have another your company feels you failed at. Everything you do gives you an inkling that you aren’t doing the right things or that no matter how hard you try you just can’t rebound from a failure.
I know that in some companies it is one and done. You fail you are out of there. In others they like to see you fail because you learn from your mistakes; in this one, it is more like certain people can fail and they get a free pass but if you fail there is a higher expectation and you are made to feel as if you are not worth being at the company any longer.
So I have an inkling things are different and going to change. It isn’t fair even though life isn’t fair but if I were to have to leave the company then maybe it is a good thing. Failure helps you learn, it helps you grow and with some things it isn’t just one persons fault that you fail. In this case it is multiple issues that bubbles up to result in a failure, therefore, should one be held to the higher standard and have it hang over their head? No but then again that would be poor management.
So it is an inkling I have that because of how management is and because of the standard they hold some to and not all the company may or may not survive. They may and may not make profits and they may and may not have those who work hardest to support the overall company goals around because of their knee jerk reactions.
Valentine’s Day. A day filled with heart shaped boxes, jewelry, chocolate, dreams, and expectations.
Some people may have been married on this day and celebrating a special occasion, others may have had their hearts broken, and others just may not relate at all. I used to have expectations for the day just like everyone else but over the years I’ve become tired of the commercialization that stores and television put on Valentine’s Day. It forces expectations on people instead of letting it happen naturally and spontaneously. It takes the unknown out of life and makes people have to react that is why I am more inclined to just have a quiet retreat and spend a day, other than Valentine’s with my husband somewhere. No frills, no candy, no hoopla- no expectations. Daily Prompt: Expectations
Finally a new year to bring a whole new perspective on living.
A lot is going to happen this year and it is all going to start with this month. Three days in and we are already getting ready for change. So many bright, new beginnings and I am looking forward to each.
Goodbye 2014, it’s been real. I’m looking forward to 2015 and the people that I will engage in conversation with, the new surroundings I will get to see, and all the possibilities that are out there ready to be explored. You never know what is right in front of you until you take a step in the direction you are most afraid of going.
Get out and try something new. 2015 is waiting for each and every one of us.
Out with the old and in with the new. Breath in and breath out.
As part of my no madness March, I am doing a bit of spring cleaning. It doesn’t just mean getting rid of the clutter around the house. It means dumping the negativity that accumulated as well along the way. See since I have been looking for a job it gets frustrating at times not having any results. Example, you reach out to your network and they don’t always respond. That’s a negative. So I am searching for a new approach. That’s my positive. Another example, I’ve talked about this before but there are friends who just aren’t worth your time or energy. In fact they don’t even see you on their radar or can’t even bother to pick up your phone call. That is a negative. Well, get rid of them. They are the baggage that is weighing you down. I’m doing that this month. Getting rid of the baggage and putting it to the curb for the collectors to pick up. It’s my positive.
I think that this will be a great start to my no madness March and a good way to stay positive. More to come in March…
Positive energy promotes a solid foundation for growth and change. -R.T.