I’ve been watching the birds outside the window sitting in the tree chirping and soaking in the rays of the sun, flitting about from branch to branch. They really are busy creatures throughout the day and it reminds me that they are just like us. We flit about just the same from place to place, from call to call, meeting to meeting, e-mail to e-mail to get the daily work done. I don’t think we stop long enough to take in what is around us each day and enjoy what is physically there present and accounted for.
We are asked to be present and give audible tones to say ‘here’, ‘yes sir’, ‘yes ma’am’, but are we really present physically? I know I am going out on a limb but I watched the birds on the branch and they look around and take a moment, even that brief 30 seconds of rest before flying off to another tree and I wonder, should we take that time as well to be present and accounted for for ourselves each day before moving between everything we do? Do we mentally take breaks through the day at all?
I’m just processing and cycling while watching the birds but have you ever just sat and thought about that?
Lately it has been a bit frustrating to get things done that require my full attention.
There are individuals who insist that they are correct in all aspects of the daily grind yet they don’t know the first thing about what I’ve been doing to make the flow of work or life for that matter efficient and effective. They assume that I am doing things wrong.
I have spelled out in words or in actions a plan, a strategy and still They insist that I am not doing right by them. It is truly getting to be a day to day beat down.
Today I am just venting and tomorrow I know will be a better day but this last week has been a real let down all around.
So my outlook is to take the small bites of good in a day no matter how insistent someone is that you are doing something wrong. Every small bite will fill you with goodness. Just keep filling yourself with small bites because that will give you some hope you will make it through the day.
I try Over and Over again to have a mantra, but I just can’t come to find one that works. Most days when I get frustrated I chant Namaste Over and Over again until I feel better but that lasts only a short time. I do this when I feel that my creativity is stifled or that i am cornered or in a box.
How is it that there are people in the world who want to always place others in a box or stifle their spark. I got excited about a project one day and a coworker said that it won’t work it is too broad of an idea. What? Think outside of the blinders you have on and what potential we all have. Why be inside of a box yourself and then place others inside with you. I don’t understand people who want to do that to you. Be open and just.
There is this person who is so so negative and then spreads their toxins around to others. They then stifle the air we all have to interact with them in and makes it uncomfortable. They also go and lie and say that those who do try and interact with that person said something they didn’t like or didn’t agree to. So who is stifling who? It makes you then stifled because you no lib we want to interact or bring things up, instead it makes you want to shut down.
I’m all for getting rid of those who bring on the negative, toxic energy and push forward with the new and positive forces of good. Enough is enough.
For the last six months I haven’t felt like things are right.
When you do everything in your power to make a client happy and you have another your company feels you failed at. Everything you do gives you an inkling that you aren’t doing the right things or that no matter how hard you try you just can’t rebound from a failure.
I know that in some companies it is one and done. You fail you are out of there. In others they like to see you fail because you learn from your mistakes; in this one, it is more like certain people can fail and they get a free pass but if you fail there is a higher expectation and you are made to feel as if you are not worth being at the company any longer.
So I have an inkling things are different and going to change. It isn’t fair even though life isn’t fair but if I were to have to leave the company then maybe it is a good thing. Failure helps you learn, it helps you grow and with some things it isn’t just one persons fault that you fail. In this case it is multiple issues that bubbles up to result in a failure, therefore, should one be held to the higher standard and have it hang over their head? No but then again that would be poor management.
So it is an inkling I have that because of how management is and because of the standard they hold some to and not all the company may or may not survive. They may and may not make profits and they may and may not have those who work hardest to support the overall company goals around because of their knee jerk reactions.